I tell you, I have been exercising everyday this week so far and I am out of shape. I can only manage about 20 minutes on those Jillian Michaels videos..but I am improving. They are KILLER. When I can get through the entire 50 minutes, I will be walking on sunshine.
I also have been watching my calories. What a wakeup call that is. Even stuff I thought was healthy had a ton of calories in it. I have done okay with that, made semi-decent (or at least much better than I used to) choices when eating out and logging everything I eat on The Daily Plate.
I stepped on the scale this morning and I had lost 2 pounds since last Wednesday BUT I'm not going to "officially" weigh-in until Sunday.
All in all, I'm extremely proud of the little steps I have been able to make in this endeavor, or as my super friend Deb calls it: the De-Whaling Mission. Usually when I get home from work, I let the tiredness run all over me and I end up not doing anything. But, this time I am actually doing it later in the evening instead of attempting it right when I get home--and even though most of the time I groan and say I don't feel like it, I actually DO get off the my butt and exercise which is HUGE. HUGE I TELL YOU.
Kudos to me!
Lastly, I made a bit of progress on my vague #4 Resolution of "Being a Better Person!" I donated $10 to the School Walk for Diabetes for a friend of mine's daughter who is participating. I have resolved myself to donate to two other charities before the year ends as well (hopefully a little bit larger sum if I can afford it). I'm planning those two charities to be the Ronald McDonald House Charities and the Susan G. Komen For the Cure.
Why those? Well, for the Ronald McDonald House, several months ago around the holidays, a local radio station was doing a fund-raiser for them. They had so many stories of how RMcD House had helped these families who's children were ill--gave them a place to stay, food to eat and clothes and care for the kids. It was so unbelievably touching that I vowed to donate to them at least once in my life.
For Susan G. Komen, I think that's probably the most repretable breast cancer foundation out there and I'd like to help in any small way I can. My grandmother is a breast cancer survivor and my aunt currently is battling it herself. It's scary and sad, as any cancer is, and it's touched my life personally.
I would encourage everyone to donate to something that is personally important to them. It makes you feel good, and even if it's just a tiny amount, you're helping!
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April 8, 2009
February 22, 2009
Hm...*sigh*
I've made no updates for February because I have NO UPDATE. This month has seemingly gone by extremely fast. I cannot believe it's already the last week of the month!! So that said, Feb started off with a bomb of work stress. So much change and so much workload has been crushing me. Hence, I have done nothing this month as far as my January-end goals went--which is a total bummer!
Wait, scratch that, I did manage some progress towards Resolution #10, you know, the style one? Well, here's my short, pointless story: In high school, when I was at my awkwardest, oily, frizzy hair, pimple stage, I managed to get up every morning and put on makeup. Regardless, sometimes it was a bright-blue mascara, purple eyeliner combo (not everyday, but boy)...but still, I did I put on something, every day. Then I graduated high school and continued my awkward stage for a few years, but stopped doing anything to myself. No makeup, no hair styling, nada.
Flash forward to today. I think I've pretty much grown into myself as an adult, my hair's not frizzy, my pimply stage is thankfully over and my want for bright blue mascara has passed. However, I don't put on so much as a smidge of makeup. Not because I'm one of those "Oh, I don't need it" types...because trust me, I DO NEED IT. It's mostly laziness and being stuck in that rut I've mentioned a thousand times. So in a vow to try to look less shitty and tired, I threw out my years old eye shadow and mascara and bought ALL NEW MAKEUP! WOOT!
It was kind of exciting buying it all new again. Now the second part of the deal is I have to make an effort to put it on in the morning....we'll see.
In the second part of this uneventful update, I will mention that I stepped on my Wii Fit and it told me I was..........167 lbs. If this is true, I will need to lose about 40 pounds. I am sad.
The good news is that if I thought I hit my breaking point before, I've definitely hit it now. I'm disgusted with myself for gaining so much weight since January 2007. And now I'm ready to battle it off and try and get myself on track. I'm sick of being a chunk! This is the most I've ever weighed in my life and it terrifies me to be close to 170lbs.
I filled my fridge with produce and lean protein and bought one of those big Igloo lunch coolers. I'm starting small and making a vow to, for one week, starting tomorrow, I will eat only unprocessed foods. Easy right? WRONG.
If I can do it, I think I'll be very proud of myself.
Oh geeze.
Wait, scratch that, I did manage some progress towards Resolution #10, you know, the style one? Well, here's my short, pointless story: In high school, when I was at my awkwardest, oily, frizzy hair, pimple stage, I managed to get up every morning and put on makeup. Regardless, sometimes it was a bright-blue mascara, purple eyeliner combo (not everyday, but boy)...but still, I did I put on something, every day. Then I graduated high school and continued my awkward stage for a few years, but stopped doing anything to myself. No makeup, no hair styling, nada.
Flash forward to today. I think I've pretty much grown into myself as an adult, my hair's not frizzy, my pimply stage is thankfully over and my want for bright blue mascara has passed. However, I don't put on so much as a smidge of makeup. Not because I'm one of those "Oh, I don't need it" types...because trust me, I DO NEED IT. It's mostly laziness and being stuck in that rut I've mentioned a thousand times. So in a vow to try to look less shitty and tired, I threw out my years old eye shadow and mascara and bought ALL NEW MAKEUP! WOOT!
It was kind of exciting buying it all new again. Now the second part of the deal is I have to make an effort to put it on in the morning....we'll see.
In the second part of this uneventful update, I will mention that I stepped on my Wii Fit and it told me I was..........167 lbs. If this is true, I will need to lose about 40 pounds. I am sad.
The good news is that if I thought I hit my breaking point before, I've definitely hit it now. I'm disgusted with myself for gaining so much weight since January 2007. And now I'm ready to battle it off and try and get myself on track. I'm sick of being a chunk! This is the most I've ever weighed in my life and it terrifies me to be close to 170lbs.
I filled my fridge with produce and lean protein and bought one of those big Igloo lunch coolers. I'm starting small and making a vow to, for one week, starting tomorrow, I will eat only unprocessed foods. Easy right? WRONG.
If I can do it, I think I'll be very proud of myself.
Oh geeze.
January 4, 2009
Permission to be lazy...
One of my big problems (of many) is that I never give myself permission to relax. I always feel like I have to do something and if I don't get it done (which is often), I beat myself up a bit for it. This is one reason for my major stress problems.
Today I gave myself permission to have a lazy morning. I decided that I would lay in bed until noon, drink some coffee, watching tv, read a book and just enjoy the morning. It was wonderful. I really need to do that more often.
Despite that, I still managed to get everything I needed to done--which is HUGE. Hair washed, check. Lunches made, check. Dinner made, check. Ran to store, check. Facial done, check. Straightened up, check.
What a great Sunday.
Tomorrow is back to work for me after a week and a half being off. Murgh. Not looking forward to it, but it'll be nice to get back to a routine. January through the spring is a very busy time for me, so I know when I return tomorrow that it'll be full speed ahead in the go-go world of finance. :-/
Also, I am vowing to get up tomorrow and workout. I hate mornings and it'll be hard, but I think if I can conquer that and start my exercise routine, it'll be wonderful. I'm hoping and praying that'll it'll give me energy throughout the day and that it'll be a start to a habit I can stick with. Only tomorrow will tell when the alarm goes off, but here's hoping to a good start to the rest of my life.
Wish me luck!
Today I gave myself permission to have a lazy morning. I decided that I would lay in bed until noon, drink some coffee, watching tv, read a book and just enjoy the morning. It was wonderful. I really need to do that more often.
Despite that, I still managed to get everything I needed to done--which is HUGE. Hair washed, check. Lunches made, check. Dinner made, check. Ran to store, check. Facial done, check. Straightened up, check.
What a great Sunday.
Tomorrow is back to work for me after a week and a half being off. Murgh. Not looking forward to it, but it'll be nice to get back to a routine. January through the spring is a very busy time for me, so I know when I return tomorrow that it'll be full speed ahead in the go-go world of finance. :-/
Also, I am vowing to get up tomorrow and workout. I hate mornings and it'll be hard, but I think if I can conquer that and start my exercise routine, it'll be wonderful. I'm hoping and praying that'll it'll give me energy throughout the day and that it'll be a start to a habit I can stick with. Only tomorrow will tell when the alarm goes off, but here's hoping to a good start to the rest of my life.
Wish me luck!
January 1, 2009
A new beginning...
I can't believe it's 2009 already. Honestly, 2008 really stunk in the life department whilst making me realize that I need to change before my whole life passes.
Firstly, a quick recap of 2008:
1. I gained 15 pounds.
2. I developed anxiety.
3. My cat got sick.
4. My apartment flooded.
5. I ran up 2 credit cards for some reason.
And worstly, my cat of 17 years passed away the day after Christmas. Actually, she started to go on Christmas day. I spent all day with her, but I don't think she had much recollection of her surroundings. Then at 3am, I knew it was over, so we had to take her to the emergency vet and put her down. It was the hardest thing I've ever had to experience and I am completely devestated. She was the absolute best cat anyone could ask for and she brought so much joy and happiness to my life. )-:
There was a few good things. One being that I successfully celebrated my one year wedding anniversary last January without killing my husband. We moved to a bigger apartment with more room. I got promoted at work.
Also, 2 days after Chloe died, my husband insisted we get a new kitten. I was very apprehensive and guilt-ridden about it, but reluctantly agreed to get 2 new kittens. So we rescued Max and Sadie, and, I must say, they've really helped fill the void that Chloe left behind. Not a replacement in any way (no one could replace that cat), but they've brought some new feelings and excitment into our lives. They're very cuddly and hyper and love to curl up with you and sleep.
Now onto life in general. Last year was the biggest realization for me that I am doing nothing I want to do with my life. I don't think I really lived a day last year. I use the excuse of being tired and stressed, which in all fairness, I really am. However, I know I'm not the only one and yet, others go on to live successfully. There are so many things I want to do with myself, but I seem to not have the energy or drive to do any of it. I'm cranky, anxious, miserable, stressed, tired, mad or asleep in my spare time.
So, that's when I decided that 2009 was really going to be the year that I need to get myself in gear and change. If I don't, I'm going to be miserable for another year while I watch my life pass me by and I just don't think I can take it.
I made 10 resolutions to accomplish this year. They aren't just 2009 resolutions, but the resolutions I want to accomplish to make the rest of my life better. I know that I will have successes and failures this year, but I need to keep pushing forward and work through it.
Here they are:
1. Take control of my life. This is pretty obvious since I just finished talking about it, but yah. Aside from the things I can't help, which everyone has to deal with, I really just sit around and mope. I need to be better organized and use my time effectively. I seriously don't do anything, but I always feel like I don't have enough time to do anything. Weird and irrational, but true. This also pretty much includes all my other resolutions.
2. Become a healthier person. I feel like the world's unhealthiest person. I am tired all the time and feel really blah. I'm out of shape, don't drink enough water and eat a ton of processed crap. I am interested in the eating clean idea and would like to start getting rid of the processed chemical food in my diet. I want to drink plenty of water and feel great and fresh and full of energy.
3. Lose weight. In 2005, I lost 20 pounds and went down from a size 12 to a size 6. It was great and I felt really good about it. Flash forward to 2008 where I have put on 15 pounds and have cried in the dressing room because my pants are once again a size 12. I want to lose at least 20 to 25 pounds and get down to about 125 which I think would be perfect for me and my small frame. I want to do this to feel better about myself and look better in my clothes. I don't know how long it will take me, but I want to do it the right way with exercise, strength training and eating cleaner foods.
4. Be a better person. This really encompasses all areas of my life. I'd like to be a better person all around, a better wife and a better friend. I want to be nicer about people in general and control my temper. I want to stop nagging my husband, although he will have to work on his problem areas as well. I want to donate to something I believe in and take up some sort of cause. There are certain people I know who just seem so wonderful about everything in life and I aspire to be like that.
5. Feel better about myself. This is kind of a combonation of all of the above. Right now, I'm feeling pretty shitty about everything in my life. I really want to work on all the things I'm unhappy about and change them so I can stop wasting my energy on feeling shitty. When somebody asks me if I truly like myself, I'd like to be able to say: "Yes!" instead of "well, I guess."
6. Become more frugal and pay off debts. I'm wasteful as a person. I don't do it intentionally, but I do it. I replace items unnecessarily and don't use every last drop of toiletries before I replace them. I waste money on things that don't contribute anything my life like eating food out because I don't feel like cooking and other stupid things all the time. By the end of the month, we don't have anything in savings and we don't get ahead. Sure, I make sure all our bills are paid on time (thank goodness for my dedication to that) but the rest of the money that is left over goes to nothing but those aforementioned stupid things. This year, I'd like to keep better track of my finances, get money into savings and pay off as much of my 3 credit cards as possible.
7. Expand my cooking world. I'm not a bad cook, but I'm a lazy cook. I want to really explore new recipes and make a lot of the convience food that I've been craming into my mouth from scratch so that it's healthier and more enjoyable. I used to love to cook, but it tapered off. I really want to regain that love, try some new foods and have fun with it.
8. Explore my creative side. I have so many things I want to try, but of course, I'm one of those people who think I can't do anything creative at all because I'm not talented. I realized I've never really tried to do anything, and, I might stink at first, but who knows, I might also really develop a creative outlet for myself. One thing I know I'm decent at is writing ficiton, which I really really wanted to do last year, but couldn't get motivated. This year I'd like to finish my first draft of the story I've been building in my head all of 2008. I also want to work on developing my photography skills since I got a fancy new camera. I also want to try my hand at painting and scrapbooking and expand my knowledge of crochet.
9. Go Green. At first when the whole Green thing started up, I didn't really pay attention. However, I've become really interested in it lately for a number of reasons. Number one is that I'm starting to look at all the chemicals in everything I use, put on my body, eat, etc and it's scary! Number two, I already mentioned, I'm very wasteful. I generate a lot of trash and I'm too lazy to recycle. My goal for this year is to start up on recycling, generate less trash, reuse, and use friendlier products. This includes cleaning products, which I'm very interested in homemade rather than store-bought chemicals.
10. Add some style to my life. I've always felt pretty blah about myself, but there was a time in the past that I would attempt to wear makeup and such. Now, I just exist. My goal in the morning is not to look good, but rather just decent. I have the same clothes since high school and would like to dress nicer in my personal life and more professionally at work. I want to regain the ability to wear some makeup and fix my hair. I want to take pride in my appearance. I also want to add some style to my surroundings. My apartment could really use some putting together.
So that's all the things that are wrong with me and that's all the the things I want to change. I started this blog so I have some place to keep me on track and a bit accountable-and also a place to share what I'm learning about life and myself.
Wish me luck!
Firstly, a quick recap of 2008:
1. I gained 15 pounds.
2. I developed anxiety.
3. My cat got sick.
4. My apartment flooded.
5. I ran up 2 credit cards for some reason.
And worstly, my cat of 17 years passed away the day after Christmas. Actually, she started to go on Christmas day. I spent all day with her, but I don't think she had much recollection of her surroundings. Then at 3am, I knew it was over, so we had to take her to the emergency vet and put her down. It was the hardest thing I've ever had to experience and I am completely devestated. She was the absolute best cat anyone could ask for and she brought so much joy and happiness to my life. )-:
There was a few good things. One being that I successfully celebrated my one year wedding anniversary last January without killing my husband. We moved to a bigger apartment with more room. I got promoted at work.
Also, 2 days after Chloe died, my husband insisted we get a new kitten. I was very apprehensive and guilt-ridden about it, but reluctantly agreed to get 2 new kittens. So we rescued Max and Sadie, and, I must say, they've really helped fill the void that Chloe left behind. Not a replacement in any way (no one could replace that cat), but they've brought some new feelings and excitment into our lives. They're very cuddly and hyper and love to curl up with you and sleep.
Now onto life in general. Last year was the biggest realization for me that I am doing nothing I want to do with my life. I don't think I really lived a day last year. I use the excuse of being tired and stressed, which in all fairness, I really am. However, I know I'm not the only one and yet, others go on to live successfully. There are so many things I want to do with myself, but I seem to not have the energy or drive to do any of it. I'm cranky, anxious, miserable, stressed, tired, mad or asleep in my spare time.
So, that's when I decided that 2009 was really going to be the year that I need to get myself in gear and change. If I don't, I'm going to be miserable for another year while I watch my life pass me by and I just don't think I can take it.
I made 10 resolutions to accomplish this year. They aren't just 2009 resolutions, but the resolutions I want to accomplish to make the rest of my life better. I know that I will have successes and failures this year, but I need to keep pushing forward and work through it.
Here they are:
1. Take control of my life. This is pretty obvious since I just finished talking about it, but yah. Aside from the things I can't help, which everyone has to deal with, I really just sit around and mope. I need to be better organized and use my time effectively. I seriously don't do anything, but I always feel like I don't have enough time to do anything. Weird and irrational, but true. This also pretty much includes all my other resolutions.
2. Become a healthier person. I feel like the world's unhealthiest person. I am tired all the time and feel really blah. I'm out of shape, don't drink enough water and eat a ton of processed crap. I am interested in the eating clean idea and would like to start getting rid of the processed chemical food in my diet. I want to drink plenty of water and feel great and fresh and full of energy.
3. Lose weight. In 2005, I lost 20 pounds and went down from a size 12 to a size 6. It was great and I felt really good about it. Flash forward to 2008 where I have put on 15 pounds and have cried in the dressing room because my pants are once again a size 12. I want to lose at least 20 to 25 pounds and get down to about 125 which I think would be perfect for me and my small frame. I want to do this to feel better about myself and look better in my clothes. I don't know how long it will take me, but I want to do it the right way with exercise, strength training and eating cleaner foods.
4. Be a better person. This really encompasses all areas of my life. I'd like to be a better person all around, a better wife and a better friend. I want to be nicer about people in general and control my temper. I want to stop nagging my husband, although he will have to work on his problem areas as well. I want to donate to something I believe in and take up some sort of cause. There are certain people I know who just seem so wonderful about everything in life and I aspire to be like that.
5. Feel better about myself. This is kind of a combonation of all of the above. Right now, I'm feeling pretty shitty about everything in my life. I really want to work on all the things I'm unhappy about and change them so I can stop wasting my energy on feeling shitty. When somebody asks me if I truly like myself, I'd like to be able to say: "Yes!" instead of "well, I guess."
6. Become more frugal and pay off debts. I'm wasteful as a person. I don't do it intentionally, but I do it. I replace items unnecessarily and don't use every last drop of toiletries before I replace them. I waste money on things that don't contribute anything my life like eating food out because I don't feel like cooking and other stupid things all the time. By the end of the month, we don't have anything in savings and we don't get ahead. Sure, I make sure all our bills are paid on time (thank goodness for my dedication to that) but the rest of the money that is left over goes to nothing but those aforementioned stupid things. This year, I'd like to keep better track of my finances, get money into savings and pay off as much of my 3 credit cards as possible.
7. Expand my cooking world. I'm not a bad cook, but I'm a lazy cook. I want to really explore new recipes and make a lot of the convience food that I've been craming into my mouth from scratch so that it's healthier and more enjoyable. I used to love to cook, but it tapered off. I really want to regain that love, try some new foods and have fun with it.
8. Explore my creative side. I have so many things I want to try, but of course, I'm one of those people who think I can't do anything creative at all because I'm not talented. I realized I've never really tried to do anything, and, I might stink at first, but who knows, I might also really develop a creative outlet for myself. One thing I know I'm decent at is writing ficiton, which I really really wanted to do last year, but couldn't get motivated. This year I'd like to finish my first draft of the story I've been building in my head all of 2008. I also want to work on developing my photography skills since I got a fancy new camera. I also want to try my hand at painting and scrapbooking and expand my knowledge of crochet.
9. Go Green. At first when the whole Green thing started up, I didn't really pay attention. However, I've become really interested in it lately for a number of reasons. Number one is that I'm starting to look at all the chemicals in everything I use, put on my body, eat, etc and it's scary! Number two, I already mentioned, I'm very wasteful. I generate a lot of trash and I'm too lazy to recycle. My goal for this year is to start up on recycling, generate less trash, reuse, and use friendlier products. This includes cleaning products, which I'm very interested in homemade rather than store-bought chemicals.
10. Add some style to my life. I've always felt pretty blah about myself, but there was a time in the past that I would attempt to wear makeup and such. Now, I just exist. My goal in the morning is not to look good, but rather just decent. I have the same clothes since high school and would like to dress nicer in my personal life and more professionally at work. I want to regain the ability to wear some makeup and fix my hair. I want to take pride in my appearance. I also want to add some style to my surroundings. My apartment could really use some putting together.
So that's all the things that are wrong with me and that's all the the things I want to change. I started this blog so I have some place to keep me on track and a bit accountable-and also a place to share what I'm learning about life and myself.
Wish me luck!
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